After spending all day in the studio last week, listening to the guys laying down their bits and pieces of the song, I felt an incredible pressure to deliver vocally.
Went back to the studio Sunday around noon, and it didn¨t quite go according to plan….

Put on the headphones, the song began, I started singing that ONE song that I’ve been listening to on REPEAT over and over day in and day out for the past three weeks (I know it in my SLEEP!) and it just doesn’t sound the way it should. So I start over. And then again. And again. The more I do it over and over, the more frustrated I get, and it pissed me off that my voice just wouldn’t cooperate. It’s as if it had a life of its own! Goddammit!

As much as you get an incredible adrenaline-kick when you’ve nailed a song 100%, you lose your spirits pretty quickly when you don’t.

Emotionally I went through the whole spectrum. From the confidence when I walked in – “I KNOW this song, I’ve sung it, recorded it, hummed it back and forth for weeks, I’m going to give it ALL!” to the sadness when I felt like I was a complete failure who sucked (“I’ll never sing anywhere again in my entire life, I’m awful!”) to the last anger where I rolled upp my sleeves, clenched my fists and went back to the mic going “I’ll sing this thing perfectly if it’s the last thing I fucking DO! Bring it on!”

But eventually I had to give up and resign – a voice is a voice, it’s a part of your body and it doesn’t always do what you want it to do. A guitarist can just change the strings if his guitar doesn’t work. A singer’s “quick fixes” are very limited. You just have to accept that some days you sound great – nd some days you sound like you’ve never sung a clear note in your entire life.

It just bugs me that the budget is limited and we already exceeded our time there. Dejan, the sound guy is cool, he’s not going to overcharge me, and I know he’s incredibly good at what he does. But I need to be the best that I can be. No sloppiness, no half-assed performances…

It’s pretty obvious really – I’ve made a living out of criticizing other people’s bands and records my whole adult life. Some can’t wait to find something to throw back in your face “If you don’t like our album, let’s see if YOU can do it better!”

No room for fuck-ups.

I know now that singing is tough and you can never predict anything. The first time it ever happened to me was back in 1989. We had a gig (with my first band Spirit) and we’d been playing several shows one after another that week, We had also recorded a demo and basically, my voice was shot.

I remember telling the guys that we had to cut “Street Life” out of the set – a song that begins with this long “yeeeeah” thing that I knew I couldn’t do with the Bonnie Tyler-voice I was struggling with at the time.

That night, when we walked out on stage, the guys were in such a great mood and they totally forgot that my voice was gone – so suddenly I hear the first notes of…Street Life. I had no choice but to try singing the freaking song anyway. That’s when it just died. Disappeared. I could not squeeze out another note, I couldn’t even speak!  I had to leave the stage and the band finished up with two instrumentals, probably hoping that I would come back out. I didn’t. I couldn’t. 

[Our first “real” demo that we recorded with a 16 channel mixer I believe it was, we were impressed because we’d only been working with like 4 channels before that, lol! And it is SO 80’s!] 

I walked around for over a week writing NOTES to people because I couldn’t speak, nothing at all was coming out, not even the slightest whisper (which I knew was a very bad idea – whispering strains your vocal chords even more).

I went to see a speech therapist, because they established at the hospital that I had the right technique for singing, but I had the wrong speech-technique and that was straining my voice in the long run.

No wonder. I had had vocal training by a classical teacher whose background was teaching in conservatories in Vienna – she was one of those operetta / musical kind of people whose main goal was to get me to reach the vocal stratosphere.

So all I remember from her classes was constant practicing of scales (Do-re-mi-fa-so-la-ti-doooo – especially the “doooooo”), she wanted to see how high I could go. I was one of the best students at the time, because I had the kind of voice that could do that. I was bored to death though.

Then I went to a jazz-singer and got a different kind of vocal training there for about a year.

So I had that down, the singing. But my “speaking” voice was bad – so after being taught how to speak in a way that wouldn’t ruin my voice, which took me two or three years of constant training, I could spare my vocal chords and sing more difficult songs.

But it was a LONG way back! Most of all – it was a very frustrating way, because I was afraid to lose my voice that way again.

And NOW – it happened again. It’s not that I “lost” my voice, it just wouldn’t do what I wanted. I know that it can happen at any time – when you least expect it and when it’s MOST inconvenient.

I’ve got one more shot at it, next week when everything has been mixed. All I can do is pray for a better day! :)

Next up in the introduction of the guys involved in the recording project – is mr:

Daniel Grönberg Svensson 

KEYBOARDS

…………….

I’m 100% self-taught, never took any piano lessons,  I have had formal music training though. When I attended Uppsala municipal Music School for ten years, my main instrument was…trombone! 

I’ve been doing all kinds of stuff through the years, always open to trying new things musically. That’s how I ended up fronting a punk band for instance. That would have been back in 1995 I think.

But it’s rock’n’roll that I’m really passionate about, especially 80’s glam. So I’ve been playing in all kinds of different hard rock /metal bands for the past 15 years – the latest one being melodic rockers GRAND SLAM. You might have seen us performing on the TV-show  “Sweden’s Got Talent” – and two of our songs were picked to compete as “Jokers” for the Swedish takeouts for the Eurovision Song Contest. 

So what else have I done… Released two EP’s under my own name back in 2002 and 2003 – titled “Shout It Out” and “Shine“. I wrote everything on those – kind of a one-man-show, called in different musicians to play on it.

That would be about it I think – in a nutshell. My life has been pretty crazy, but let’s save that for some other time – some of it would make Motley Crue seem like a walk in the park…!

But if you REALLY want me to shock you – how about this….: Two of my favorite instruments to play are the accordion and harmonica! The accordion most definitely makes it to my top list!

[Daniel’s current band, Grand Slam:]

The recording project will (hopefully) be done tomorrow. Unless I lose my voice overnight or something else happens, it should be. :) And then – on Friday, time for the FIREWIND tour!

I’ve been asked a few times lately, by different people, what it is that makes me travel all over the planet to see gigs – one of my Sweden Rock-friends even called it “crazy” this morning.

When I told him that the alternative would be staying at home watching TV – he had to agree that maybe it wasn’t so crazy after all. “But probably expensive?” he asked.

Not really. I’m so used to this. I know the cheapest and best ways to get around, I’ve made this my lifestyle. And I love it. There’s definitely something in me that craves that sense of freedom and adventure that I get from traveling. Because something ALWAYS happens, and you never know when, where or what. That’s the beauty of it. You’re facing challenges in a way you wouldn’t if you only stayed at home, and it gives you new perspectives all the time, makes you grow on a personal level I think.

If you love music as much as I do, why just settle for live-DVD’s? Why not actually be a PART of the experience?!

I’ve taken it easy for the past month or so and I can already tell that I’m becoming more passive and bored (well…passive by MY measures…).

I’m not a stay-at-home kind of person. And rock’n’roll is my greatest passion in life. I always envied those who made a living touring the world, playing music. As it wasn’t in the stars for me to become one of those lucky ones, I just made it happen my own way. And it works. :)

Cause much like the bands, I don’t travel as a tourist. I don’t see the things I “should” check out when I go to new places. All I see, most of the time, is the airport (or train station), the hotel and the venue. If I arrive early, I might take a look around, but basically only around the area of my hotel or the venue. :) But that’s fine, it’s all about the vibe of a new city, the people, the food, whatever…

So – it’s not really that I’m a crazy, psycho fan of every band I travel somewhere to see. Of course I won’t travel anywhere to see a band that sucks, but I’d say that 50% is about the band and the other 50% about the travelling itself. 

As for Firewind, I explained that the other day to the drummer of my project, they are a great live-band. I drop my jaw every time, because they are absolutely amazing. There’s everything I’m looking for in their shows: Unbelievable musicianship, energy and most of all you can tell that they enjoy doing what they do. It’s not just another day at the office, they are having a good time on stage, interacting with the crowd and enjoying just playing together. It’s a great chemistry that works.

I saw it almost 20 times last year and I’m still not bored. Looking forward to the tour.

It’s just funny that people are calling ME “crazy”. In my mind, it’s a lot crazier not doing what you love to do, while you can! It’s nice with quiet TV-evenings in the winter but if I have the choice, I’d much rather go anywhere in the world for my dose of loud music!